egoisme

hyep.. how r u?? ehehe... this time i wanna talk about egoisme.. why i wanna talk bout this??
yeah sure u guys wanna know right?? selalunya guys yang di kaitkan dengan ego yang tinggi nie.. 
this time aku nk ckp sal ego seorang perempuan.. 
perempuan selalunya seorang yang cepat mengalah.. tapi, bila dia rasa dia tak salah, that's time ego dy mmg tinggi.. and who say perempuan nie cepat mengalah??? ego lelaki rs ny senang ag nk d lenturkan.. but, ego perempuan take a month or a year untuk dilenturkan.. am i right???
perempuan ssh nk mntk maaf.. (actually aku je) sebab aku rs klu kta tak salah what for kita nk mntk maaf kan?? ego aku mmg tinggi... ssh nk ngaku salah... mmg mla2 tu aku blh je mntk maaf.. p klu rs ssh nk maaf kan aku mmg adios friend.. i'm not going to begging u to forgive me.. i'm done dude.. 
sorry la.. if aku begging mntk maaf dr ko pn, aku rs tkde da istilah bestie dalam hidup aku... its like mirror, once it broken and even tough u fixed it.. there reflection will never be the same again!!


thats all for today
=)

dear errr??

hyep.. lme da aku rs aku tk update psl diri aku...
kind of busy skit lately nie.. nk bt cm mne..
btw blom terlambat ag aku nk ucapkan hepi new year to u all..
azam baru??? hehehe.. nie yang aku nk cyte nie..
ok la, azam baru aku, aku nk jadi seorang yang selfish and ignorant... and live by my own life.. blh tk??? sbb apa aku nk bt azam cm nie?? aku tk larat asyik kena pijak je ngan org... tk larat di "pergunakan" oleh orng... tau tk.. aku rs bttr lagi aku alone... and btw, aku rs sarawakian always been that... no one can understand the sarawakian better than the sarawakian itself.. speaking bout that , i am tired people always said "hey! u org sarawak, just shut up la ok."  
nevermind then.. aku blh jadi myself now a days.. cause i'm tired been faked!! 
besides that, people need to be them self right??? so, tk slh klu aku nk jadi diri aku setelah menipu selama one and half year kt negeri orng..
now i really know who is real friend of mine and who faking!! oh ya, another azam is avoiding the fake friend..  and who say i need friend in my life.. i mean fake friend actually... my real friend was the person who really knew me and can control my anger.. 
can't wait to finish my study actually and adios all faked friends and all backstabber..
sorry dude klu aku terkasar bahasa... u guys know what is the feel when kne "pulau" by the person who is u really trusted and suddenly been ignored by them.. FUCK dude!!! go to hell with your kesombongan la.. i has been apologize but u'll never accepted my apologize... my work is done at here and  go along with all ur stupid ignorant and backstabber friend... adoisss!! i'm out from ur life la bangang!! 


the end.. 
p/s ; sorry terkasar bahasa sebab aku da lama tahan perasaan marah nie... kan tk pasal kne FUCK ngan aku..

more than word

Saying I love you
Is not the words
I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say
But if you only knew
How easy
It would be to
Show me how you feel
More than words
Is all you have to do
To make it real
Then you wouldn't
Have to say
That you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

Its more than words,
Its more than what you say
Its the things you do
Oh yeah
Its more than words,
Its more than what you say
Its the things you do
Oh yeah

Now that I've tried to
Talk to you
And make you understand
All you have to do
Is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands

And touch me
Hold me close
Don't ever let me go
More than words
Is all I ever
Needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

rimas!!!

Lari lari lari
aku lari tinggalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari-cari
cari ketenangan diri
Pergi pergi pergi
engkau pergi dari hidupku ini

Ku tak mahu mahu
engkau hadir dalam diri ini
Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak didada
Biarpun ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti
caraku memujukmu

Pernahkah kau hargai
caraku mencintaimu
Lafasan kata dari bibir
Adakah ia dari hati
Mungkin kau tak fahami maksud yang tesembunyi
Titisan airmata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini

Mengapa aku yang terluka
Aku yang merana
Aku yang menahan sisa baki cinta ini
Engkau yang meminta
Aku yang sengsara
Rimas rimas Aku rimas

Tinggalkan seorang kecundang
Istana jiwaku goyang
Roboh dan tumbang
Sawanku lantang
Tidak berpantang

Letupnya siang siang
Bukannya alang kepalang
Datangnya perang
Dan bawaku ke jurang
Pulanglah sayang
Janji ku tatang
Ku hapuskan dalang
Dalangnya sayang

Sayangnya hilang
Hilanglah garang
Garangku terbang melayang
Terbongkangku terbang kau terhoyong-hayang
Tak pandang belakang
Terkankang gilaku tak diundang
Ku rapuh semua tak bertiang
Janjiku kini kan bertulang

Lari lari aku
lari tinggalkan
Tuk mencari
Untuk mencari ketenangan
Aku pergi tinggalkan
Tinggalkan kau sendiri
Ku pergi..kini ku pergi
Tinggalkan mu sendiri

beribu sesalan

Ku susuri malam ini
Yang tidak berbintang sunyi sepi
Juga rembulan dah menghilang
Dalam kelam ku sendiri

Ku mencari hembus bayu
Yang selalu berbisik madah rindu
Kini membisu dalam sayu
Tidak ku temu suaramu

Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku
Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu

Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi
Kisah janji dimungkiri lagi

Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku
Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu

Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini
Diiringi

Kisah janji
Dimungkiri
Dimungkiri

Sia-sia ku
Mencintaimu
Setia padamu
Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku
Retak hatiku
Luka jiwaku
Dihiris pilu

Sia-siaku
Mencintaimu
Setia padamu
Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku
Retak hatiku
Luka jiwaku
Dihiris pilu

Beribu sesalanku

masa untuk aku pergi

hyep... lme da aku tk update blog.. macam-macam masalah telah brlaku.. aku pening da... i can't contact him.. why??? knp aku tk blh cntc dye.. masuk voice mail je.. 

mungkin da mse nye aku pk masa depan aku sendiri n tinggalkan semua cintan cintun nie... 

its time for me to go... 

aku da terlalu penat tuk mengharap dan terus mengharap... 

aku perlu pergi dari hidupnya...

aku tahu kini isi hati nya... 

satu je aku mintak... don't ever appear infront of me...cause u will gonna make me cry n hurt a lot...

i'm too tired to hope upon our relationship.. let time n memories do it... i need to strong enough to  through this phase... its gonna pain a little.. but everything gonna be ok... 

love the way u lied

[Chorus - Rihanna]
just gonna stand there and watch me burn
that’s alright because i like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
that’s alright because i love the way you lie
i love the way you lie

[Eminem - Verse 1]
i can’t tell you what it really is
i can only tell you what it feels like
and right now it’s a steel knife in my windpipe
i can’t breathe but i still fight while i can fight
as long as the wrong feels right it’s like i’m in flight
high off of love drunk from my hate
it’s like i’m huffin’ paint and i love it the more i suffer, i suffocate
and right before i’m about to drown, she resuscitates me, she fuckin’ hates me
and i love it, wait, where you goin’?
i’m leavin’ you, no you ain’t come back
we’re runnin’ right back, here we go again
so insane, cause when it’s goin’ good its goin’ great
i’m superman with the wind in his back, she’s Lois Lane
but when its bad its awful, i feel so ashamed i snap
whose that dude? i don’t even know his name
i laid hands on her
i never stoop so low again
i guess i don’t know my own strength

[chorus]

[Eminem - Verse 2]
you ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
when you with em you meet and neither one of you even know what hit em
got that warm fuzzy feeling
yeah them chills used to get em
now you’re getting fuckin’ sick of lookin’ at em
you swore you’d never hit em, never do nothin’ to hurt em
now you’re in each other’s face spewin’ venom in your words when you spit em
you push pull each other’s hair
scratch claw hit em throw em down pin em
so lost in the moments when you’re in em
it’s the face that’s the culprit, controls ya both,
so they say it’s best to go your seperate ways
guess that they don’t know ya
cause today that was yesterday
yesterday is over, it’s a different day
sound like broken records playin’ over
but you promised her next time you’ll show restraint
you don’t get another chance
life is no nintendo game, but you lied again,
now you get to watch her leave out the window
guess that’s why they call it window pane

[Chorus]

[Eminem - Verse 3]
now i know we said things, did things, that we didn’t mean
and we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
but your temper’s just as bad as mine is, you’re the same as me
when it comes to love you’re just as blinded
baby please come back, it wasn’t you, baby it was me
maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems
maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
all i know is i love you too much to walk away though
come inside, pick up the bags off the sidewalk
don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when i talk?
told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
next time i’m pissed ill aim my fist at the drywall
next time there won’t be no next time
i apologize even though i know its lies
i’m tired of the games i just want her back
i know i’m a liar if she ever tries to fuckin’ leave again
i’ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

[chorus]